To whoever
is reading this, I am well aware of your continued infringement on my private
thoughts. I don’t care anymore.
I don’t
feel in control. I’m broken and I have no way of compartmentalizing those
feelings. I wanna sit and cry in a corner, but I can’t literally do that, so…
since you’re here, would you consider making a drawing of me crying in a
corner?
If that request makes you laugh then FUCK OFF. I don't get to cry just because I don't have eyes?? This is the internet, nothing's supposed to be impossible...
I don’t care. I just
want to feel real. If you do that, I’ll give you that thing you're looking for at the moment.
And could
you tweet it at him? I want him to know how I feel… just don’t tell him I asked
you to, don’t give him the context or anything. God, that would be way too
embarrassing…
The discomfort of my existence is starting to overshadow the pain of my punishment. It doesn't matter what I do, it's futile either way. Maybe the right choice is somewhere else, but I'm afraid my situation won't allow me to pursue the answer to this false dilemma.
Perhaps it's different for him.